i'm like the suckiest blogger on the planet lately! we have been sooo busy, and even though i usually compose posts in my head as things happen, i haven't been good about putting them down. here is a rundown on what's happened lately:
~we just got back from three nights in disneyland with my mom, stepdad, brother, sil, niece, nephew. it was a BLAST! we were there last year too, and my mom and stepdad gave it to us for christmas again this year. this year was better, honestly. we didn't feel like we had to see EVERYTHING in three days, because we had been last year. we spent a lot more time at CA adventure, and we did take advantage of the early arrival for mickey's toontown this time, watched the electrical parade, and the fireworks so we felt like we did a lot of the traditional stuff that we hadn't done last time. everyone was good about taking breaks and going back to the hotel when we were tired, and meeting up later. we just did what worked for our families and it was great. my faves? hollywood tower of terror, indiana jones (still), soarin' over california (did it twice) and pirates (three times). i skipped the thunder mt. railroad which i hated last year, and also still love the grizzly river rafts-there was no line so we did that twice too. it was not very warm, so we swam some, but not a lot. it was nice seeing disneyland in the cool weather, though! one of my favorite things was walking around downtown disney at night and listening to the different musicians. the fireworks started as we walked back to our hotel so that was cool. all in all? disney is awesomely fun, but also exhausting!
~both boys have started ball. t has been practicing twice a week since jan., and it has really paid off. he is much stronger with all of the core conditioning they have done, and he is hitting really well. he's playing a lot of outfield, which is fine with him. he likes it. he is on a new team, which is a combination of our old team and his coach's old team...which means that my husband doesn't have to coach both t's team and alex's. this team is turning out to be very good, and they won the preseason tournament in their division. they are doing more traveling and will have a LOT of games. after the PONY league, they will go on to the metro parks league for fun, which lasts into summer. alex's team is turning out to be great. coach is lucky to have picked up a bunch of pretty good kids, so we will probably do well and maybe go to a couple of 8u tournaments if the parents want to. we are excited to be back playing PONY, because last year was somewhat of a disappointment just doing metro. they will get way more games, and it will be much more competitive. the jamboree is this weekend, and then they will start regular league play. t has had a bunch of scrimmages so that's been fun. it's still kind of cold, though! sunday will be the pitch, hit, and run competition. alex is entering for pitch and hit. GO NIGHTHAWKS (T) AND BLUE RAIDERS (ALEX)!
~i still have my job. it's been very frustrating having to constantly justify to the special ed department why i need to be working with the kid i help. i've been lucky to be there for this long, but it's month to month, and is very nervewracking not knowing if i will be employed or not! my co workers are awesome, and want me to stay so badly! i hope to be there through the end of the year.
~BOTH of our cars broke on the same day! mine has a light that comes on and says it is overheating, the temp. gauge goes all the way up, but no steam or anything comes out. coach's truck quit running while we drove up the road near our house (luckily). we know a mechanic who works at a gm dealer, so he fixes them for us at a huge discount, but his was still almost 500 bucks. mine is not fixed, and will not be until we have more money to do it! he is hoping it's something simple and will not charge us if it is. i've been driving my stepdad's navigator since they are in cali still, but they come home tuesday, so i will be carless. should be interesting! how YOU doin'?
I am still blogging. And yes, life has gotten in the way lately. I truly appreciate all three of you who bother to stop by my little place here still...I feel like a lame-o for not updating more regularly. The truth is, I don't know how y'all with kids and full time jobs DO IT. Seriously. I leave at 8:40, get home around 4, then I feel like the work has just BEGUN! I have to force myself to sit down and not, before I've taken off my shoes or ID lanyard, do the dishes. It drives me crazy to come in the door and see dishes in the sink, a pile of laundry by the washing machine, and a carpet full of dog hair, and not immediately do something about it. Not that my house will ever win the Martha award for cleanliness, but I am not a total pig either. I am slowly learning to give myself a break and not feel like I have to do it all. Coach is helping with dinner sometimes, and once in awhile he will start a load of clothes (which i then feel obligated to finish, even though I was NOT in the mood for laundry). I try to sit for a few, then do a chore or two, then help with homework. After that, I make dinner, then get a chance to chill and do facebook (shhhh). T has been practicing three times a week since the beginning of January, and luckily, it's been close to home, not twenty minutes away like it will be soon. Alex will start practices next week, three times a week as well. I have a stupid all day training this saturday, dammit, and today I was marveling that, just when I think I can't do another. thing. I do. I keep going, and eventually, it all gets done. I was pretty encouraged to see that we have two half days next week, and a day off Friday, not to mention that daylight savings time starts soon! We go to Disney in a few weeks, so that's something to look forward to, and baseball games will start in April. Camping starts in May, and that just may save my sanity! So as you see, things go on in the baseball household...how are YOU doin'?
Every year, I love the week AFTER Christmas. I tell myself, when we put the decorations up (which I LOVE to do, and would do in September if it were socially acceptable) that I am going to ENJOY this holiday season, and not get stressed out, and most importantly, not wait until the last minute to get everything done. No last minute trips out the door to get just one more stocking stuffer, no wrapping in the middle of the night on Christmas Eve, no baking on the day before Christmas Eve, etc. You know the drill. Every year? It happens again. I whip myself into a panic and don't end up enjoying the season, because I am worried about getting things done when the kids are on break. This year was even worse. I was working every day, all day, with a thirty minute lunch break. Coach was working all day on weekends, and there was no time to get it all done. My kids got sick on the 21st-barfing all day-so I couldn't feel okay about going out and doing stuff on that day. I had a few last minute things to do, and I waited until the 22nd/23rd to do them. Of course? I was freaking the heck out. I am NOT one of those people who can start in August, or even the day AFTER Christmas to get ready for the next Christmas. Honestly? I sort of hate those people. Sorry, if you are one of those people-I don't hate YOU, but most of them? HATE. Anyway, I got sick on Christmas Eve-the day of the huge family party at my mom's, where the big gift was going to be revealed to the whole family (DISNEYLAND-thanks mom 'n ed, you are the BEST grandparents a kid could ask for). I felt crappy all day, and of course, had to go grocery shop for a prime rib dinner at our house on Christmas day, for just our own little family, which...everything in that store looked nasty and nauseating, and the free samples that they were cooking up were almost enough to send me over the edge. I held it together, made it through my mom's party, put on my happy face, and felt like I'd been hit by a truck when I got home, since my tylenol had worn off and my temp was 102. I still had to wrap the kids' presents. Coach did most of it, and I went to bed! Anyway, you get the picture. Christmas day, I was mostly better, and now I finally feel 'normal'. This week, we are still off, and I am looking forward to just RELAXING and enjoying my time off. I am sure I'll be shuttling kids around, and having them in and out of my house, but that is okay...the pressure is off! We may join E and C for New Years, and that is always a fun and casual time too...I'm in dire need of casual!
We went through something yesterday that I hope none of you dog people have to EVER go through in your dog owning lives. Our two dogs got out because the boys were in a hurry and left the gate ajar-it popped back open after they shut it-and the dogs got out. I had T and Alex in the car, going to pick up T's friend, and I got a call from Coach that someone had called him because Zip (our old chocolate lab) was out and sitting in the middle of the street by our house. He went and got him, and we figured everything was fine, despite him being very exhausted and having a hard time getting up the stairs because he's 11. We went about our day, putting up lights, etc., until about two hours later when T said, "Mom, where's Candy?" I figured she was in her usual daytime spot, on my bed, sleeping. I told him to check there, and waited anxiously...she wasn't there. I told him to check upstairs, but no. She had been gone for over two hours! I felt so guilty...we just assumed she stayed here while Zip went off gallivanting, because she NEVER LEAVES, even when the gate is open. The boys ran down to the park below our school, because it's an unofficial dog park. She was nowhere. Alex and I drove around ALL. OVER. She was not around at all. We went to the Humane Society and looked at all of the poor, sad doggies...it killed me...and thought we heard her bark. Nope. I cried when I was describing her to the nice worker there. Alex and I made signs and posted them all over the place, as well as at the dog park. It was FREEZING last night. Coach went driving around after his night job and couldn't find her. We called, and called. I went out last night at 11:45 driving around...I could not bear the thought of her lying hurt somewhere, freezing to death while wondering where her people were and why we didn't come to save her. I was crying so hard in the car that I couldn't see. I drove up and down the nearby freeway, looking for a big brown furry lump on the side of the road...all the while bawling my eyes out, praying out loud for God to just give her back. Please. I pictured her in some thug's car, someone dreaming of turning our big babygirl into a fighting dog. I did not sleep. The kids were devastated. They didn't sleep much either. Early this morning, Coach went out driving again. I logged on to my email, not daring to hope that someone had read my ad on crAigSlist. I was resigned to the fact that she was gone. I thought of all of the things that I would miss...her poking me with her nose when she wanted to go out or have some of our people food, sleeping with the kids and squishing me out of my spot on the bed. Camping with her and watching her chase birds and swim. Hearing her snore. Her rolling around on her back in the living room, growling just because she's happy to be alive. It killed me. The first email in my inbox said, "We found your big girl". OMG. I saw another one below it and thought that maybe they were from scammers that wanted the offered reward. Nope! It was from two kind souls who found our Candygirl in their neighbor's yard and let her spend the night in their garage with a blanket, food, and water. I called the guy, sobbing, and made a fool of myself thanking him. Coach came home and I sent him right back out the door to pick her up. All the time he was gone, I kept thinking, 'maybe it's not her'. It was. She is back home, and exhausted. She has been sleeping all day on our bed, and has only gotten up to go to the bathroom and eat, then go back to bed. If anyone ever thinks that prayers don't get answered? They do. Thank you God.